What feeling is it...?

It appear again.
This feeling,
i wonder how should I describe this feeling.
Felt lost...
hehe,
what an emo me,
behave emo again...
I need a listener..

A suitable listener,
who truthly listen to me and always listen to me,
haha,
share my stories~

I just can say that,
this feeling is uncomfortable,
totally unease and be all adrift...
totally a mess....

Put on steaM >< Girl!

Jingle bell, jingle bell...
Christmas eve 's approaching,
but i am not comfortable at all.
I wonder why these happen.?
Am I being like that again.?


I memorized lots of unbreakable memories.
Felt so tiny,
I am so tiny to be seen.
No body notice me usually,
I am always the last to be seen,
It's so embarrassing...
I am still tiny since I was a child..
nobody notice me at the first sight.

I hope nothing,
just a little bit attention and confirmation,
I don't want being abondane,
really scare of that.

I am going back for study,
I need to put more effort on my study,
doing excellent in my study to exempt loan payment.
And I should get a height of achievement.
That will be the glory of my parents.
I am pushing myself to do this way,
that's my responsiblity.

Put On Steam , Girl !!!

I did not realize that it has been a long time i had put these off..
since when our relationship level down,
become common friend?

May be since the time we meet
our status maintaining common friend until today.

Once, I have some feeling with you...
and my diary full with your character..
I usually mentioned you..

hah,
I know you have a heart with other,
somebody who never loves you,
but you refuse to give up,
you choose to stay and continue your spirit.
I am envy..
for once..

I don't have idea,
since when I have support you
to keep loving that girl
but that's the way I choose
to be your best friend
and soulmate..
you treat me like a friend
so does me.

May be I am too strong,
and refuse to accept any pity from anyone.
Consequently, I have been abort.
No ones put a little bit attention on me,
I felt abondone...

Yes That,
but I not longer a child.
I 've 18 .
I can face with these stuff,
annoying feeling.

Ya, I am strong